11.14.2004

is there something darker than black?

he did not call or text-message this weekend. joe was right - he knows when something's up and avoids it like the plague. avoids me like the plague. i wish i was the plague. then he'd have it and die.

understand, i don't really want him to die. but when i feel this way it's hard not to want other people more deserving of bad things to suffer.

so i guess it's over. i wonder if i'll ever see or hear from him again. it doesn't seem to matter either way.

alannablue at 8:32 p.m.

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